PCMC

Mr. Chase 2.0 had his hard palate repaired yesterday. It went well but afterwards he was having difficulty breathing. So we ended up in the PICU. It looks like we will be heading home this afternoon, but this poor kid is exhausted.

Check, check one.

It's been a while. We're alive! See!

Its been a while... as usual life got in the way of blogging. I have been all over the place and no where all at the same time. Do you ever feel like that?

Today, I am busy moving beds, prepping for Book Club which will be held at my place- this involves cleaning and coming up with something yummy for dinner, all the while trying to finishing putting up the last of the apple butter I have been putting off canning and finally reclaiming the kitchen after 3-solid weeks of canning. No biggie right?

 
In addition to canning and whatnot we have recently been informed that Mr. Chase 2.0 will be undergoing yet another surgery, much sooner than expected. -Stupid Pierre Robin- This surgery will be to close his hard palate in hopes of alleviating some of the maladies that having it open creates ie. trouble swallowing, ear infections, etc

Closing the Door

530 East 200 North #2 - that was home for the better and worst part of five years!

I had my check out yesterday and as I grumbles about how awful the land lord was and how absolutely disgusting under the oven was I realized how much I would miss this place. It's been HOME for so long. Both of my wonderful children have been brought home to there from the hospital. I have been through hell and back in that old and musty apartment and now it's all over. The door on that chapter of my life has not only figuratively but literally closed.

It's true my family has moved into somewhere MUCH nicer and the health of my son has improved vastly but tonight I can't help but pause and reflect on how much I miss "HOME" my mother tells me that my new place will feel like home as soon as my pictures and whatnot are up on the walls but I have a fear and a hope that nothing will ever quite be the same again.

Over the River and to THE WOODS

Being the Typical impulsive person that I am

 last week

 I pack up my two little ones and drove from Logan to Gilbert.

 March 1st was my Grandmother's 72nd Birthday. 

So we ran down to wish her well and see the fam. 

It was a LONG drive (there and back) but it was wonderful.

I have been wanting to feel creative and like I have created something beautiful, darn Pinterest making things look so simple and easy when in reality they are time consuming and frustrating.

I gave a go at cookies. The icing hated me and did not want to go into the decorating bottles I swear there is a secret someone is not letting me in on. But here is the result.

Anyone else feel like they didn't quite get what they were hoping for done today?

Family Home Evening

One of my "Resolutions"/ Goals for the year is to hold Family Home Evening every Monday night, come heck or high water it will be done. Even if it ends up being a quick song prayer and ask a couple of questions to our ALMOST 4 Year old.

I must confess however, I am not the mom that spends hours plotting planning her lessons. I have been the mom that leans upon the preparedness of others that are kind enough to share their SUPERMOM (overachieverness) on the Web.

www.fhelessons.com

http://www.ldsfamilyfun.com/fhe/fhelessons.htm

http://www.sugardoodle.net/Family%20Home%20Evening/FHEIndex.shtml

Are just some of the sites I use.

What do you do for FHE?

Disappointment

I am infamous for getting excited about things.

When I was 14 it was NSYNC. My sister and I got 28th row on the floor seats for Christmas, the concert however was in APRIL!!!

When I was 18 (again for Christmas) I was given a "Fly Anywhere" pass on Southwest and $100 from my parents. The planning and excitement that followed was so amazing. I plotted I mean planned the most bang for my buck. NYC- a show on broadway- (WICKED) a trip to Times Square, the Statue of Liberty Elis Island, Central Park, The Brooklyn Bridge, I did it all. It was incredible.  But again, I got the present in December and didn't pull off the trip till almost April.

I have also been know to get an idea in my head in, jump in the car and just go. Typically to Phoenix with a little planning and preparation.

What's my point? I HAD the opportunity to make a huge and exciting trip to somewhere I have never been before and somewhere that Mr. Chase and I have talked about going together since we met... Just had a couple of loose ends to finalize and then bam. I don't get to go and to add insult to injury, I am the one that doesn't get to go. Mr. Chase will still be going (granted he will be working whilst there) but he gets to go and I don't.

So, now I feel like the kid that has been promised Disneyland had her bags packed and was waiting for her ride to come pick her up and then she's told that she doesn't get to go.

Inadequacy

Do you ever go to bed feeling like you did not accomplish anything you wanted to that day?

Lately this seems to be the story of my life. I have even taken to writing down all that I HAVE done in the day just to show myself that I did actually do something.

Today I went to church made dinner cleaned my bedroom visited my parents etc but while visiting my parents a migraine struck. Seriously one minute I was fine the next I could not get my eyes to focus to save my life. I was in bed at 7pm much to the chagrin of mr chase. That simple thing caused me to feel like I got nothing done. 😞

I felt like my whole night was wasted, says I as I write this from my iPhone t 1130.

It's been that kind of day... You know the kind. You go and go and go by the time you finally stop you're exhausted and want nothing more than to go straight to bed. Do not pass go do not collect all the toys on the floor do not fold that one last load of laundry just go to bed and when you do, you can't fall to sleep! { insert cursing here } seriously!

Here is a list of SOME of the things I did today. Yes I made a list, a list for my husband because inevitably he asks me what I have done all day. Granted this list is not all inclusive it leave out everything past 7pm and the things I forgot while writing the list.

It's just been one of those days.

Another down

Finished another blanket this evening. Okay finished might be the wrong word I need to weave in the ends and add a stitch or two to reinforce some sewing together I have already done but for the most part it's done!!! No pattern just winged it, I can't read a pattern to save my life.

Take A Deep Breath

Sometimes my own words fail me:

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A Year Ago

It's been a year. He's doing great!

Sometimes Late at Night

The clock is ever so slowing creeping it's way along inching closer to midnight. My house is quite except for the sounds of snores drifting in from the children's room, oh and the loud engine like roar of my dear husband snoring away next to me. But In These not so quite moments, somewhat late at night, I lay here in bed and revel in how blessed and grateful I am.

It's true I don't have many of the things I want and sometimes even go without the things I think I need but right now i cant think of anything i would be willing to trade for this peace that I have in this moment .

My family are all under the same roof. It was a fight free evening. I got to hold and cuddle with BOTH of my beautiful children. My husband, who -God bless him- drives me crazy, fell asleep while holding me, rolls over every so often and when he does he whispers I love you even though he is mostly asleep, he is currently snoring in my ear.

My children are both asleep in their room, which I was just in and they are both breathing, snoring lightly.

As for me... Well I am enjoying the peace that I have right now in this moment. I know it's not gong to last that long but I am enjoying it while it does.

Goodnight

Go Jazz

So for our 1 year anniversary Mr. Chase and I went to the first NBA home game of the season for the Utah Jazz.

Luckily I had pulled some strings and managed to get the Jazz to pull off a win, just to commemorate our anniversary.

We had a great time.

What I've Done

So I know I've been a bad blogger. In 2012 I will work on being a better blogger, not only for your entertainment but to save my sanity. Its been too long. However you may ask what I have been doing with all the extra time I have had since I have not been blogging.

Well...  at least I haven't been sitting on my thumbs!  Throw in 4-5 hats and a scarf or two and you can see what I've been up to.

I hope you have missed me. I have missed you.