Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Memorable Moments

Mr. Chase and I were talking last night and the topic of what our most memorable moments with the other was.

Mr. Chase told me that his top two memories were one of our first "real" dates - and I say "real" because most of our early dates consisted of watching a movie in my front room in the middle of the night because he worked until nine. I thought it was pretty funny that something as simple as ice skating at the local park would leave such an impression on him.
As I laid in bed last night I remembered our date. Putting on skates together, holding hands as we both tried to not fall, and Mr. Chase asking a random skater to take our photo together. I really think that was the date where I realized that Mr. Chase really liked me.

He also said that the birth of Mr. Chase 2.0 made his list or memorable moments. I thought that was a given. It was only 20 days ago but as I think about all that happend that night I'm sure it won't be an event that either of us will soon forget. I know that seems funny of course you remember the birth of your children but Mr. Chase 2.0's birth was insane! Not so much the actual birth but the him being out and the events that took place shortly there after.

I of course agreed that the birth of our son was probably one of our most memorable moments together but what I remember the most was after Mr. Chase 2.0 got here and I was actually able to hold him in the NICU up in Logan, I had baby on my chest with daddy behind me holding my hand. It was a very emotional moment.

I thought it was funny and it surprised me as we talked that neither one of us mentioned our wedding/marriage. Its not that it wasn't special or memorable, because it was but maybe because it too is so new and maybe not as traumatic and life changing as birth or maybe the moment where you realize that perhaps this is the person you want to spend the rest of your life with.

PS - these two photos are taken almost exactly one year apart from one another.
if only we would have known then what we know now.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011


Today I am a little stressed.

Mr. Chase 2.0's surgery has been pushed back till Monday due to scheduling conflicts. Our wonderful Doctor was unable to get the team together that he wanted for Thursday and Monday is the earliest they can all convene. So we get to wait an extra few days, which I am trying to be positive about. He'll have the opportunity to get bigger and stronger.

I am nervous about the impending surgery. I know it will go well, but poor little Mr. Chase 2.0's due date wasn't even until the 26th and he'll be having major surgery on the 24th.


Monday, January 17, 2011

Crash Course

Mothering 101 is a class that I got a passing Grade in nearly 3 years ago, my little girl has survived my mothering for the last nearly 3 years (her birthday is February 10).

Now I'm enrolled in Mothering 202 and can I just say WOW, talk about a crash course. My dear little boy Mr. Chase 2.0 has been through a lot and in the words of the scarecrow, "Its going to get darker before it gets lighter."
We have spent 10 days in the NICU at Primary Childrens Medical Center down in Salt Lake City, and it looks like we will have the opportunity to spend quite a bit of time down here. Mr. Chase 2.0 gets to have surgery on Thursday and then there is the recovery time and a few other things that have to be factored in.

The Stars

Sometimes the constants in our lives are all we have
the stars and the wonders they inspire
seem to be my only constant right now.

Friday, January 14, 2011

Heals MY Soul

As I was slowly making my way out of the NICU last night I had this feeling of calm and peace wash over me. It actually took me a minute to realize that I was hearing a familiar hymn.

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The girls choir that was practicing/performing in the lobby of the hospital will probably never know how much I appreciate the moment of calm that they provided me.