Go, Go, Go Go!

Had a wonderful night with Mr. Chase. We went to see with my parents. Its one of our favorites, Mr. chase had not seen it so it was fun. Not as awkward as it cold have been. Enjoyed getting out of the house and away from things for a few brief moments.

Sometimes

These Are My Confessions

Contrary to popular belief. I am NOT an idiot.

Why do I say this? Night before last I received and email from the OTHER Woman Girl -its not really fair to call her a woman because she’s 20, and let’s face it she’s still pretty young- I have to say it is one of the most interesting emails I have ever received in my life. This girl felt the need to express her concern to me about Mr. Chase “playing” both of us for fools. Now, getting an email like this is never a fun experience and Mr. Chase was actually sitting next to me while I read it, holding my hand. Everything she said in the email I already knew but seeing things from her point of view was interesting. And a little scary.

She told me that since she couldn’t get a straight answer from Mr. Chase about our (his and mine) relationship, she decided to find out what I had to say. How did she go about this? She looked me up on Facebook to read my posts and even went as far as reading THIS blog to get her answers. (Facebook has now been set to private, Thank You very much) She then felt the need to tell me that when asked point-blank Mr. Chase told her that we were “just friends, and that she was more WAY more important to him.” Now ladies and gentlemen I will be the first to admit to not being the most secure woman in the world and to be embarrassingly honest her saying this to me hurt BUT as I mentioned Mr. Chase was sitting there reading the email with me and he had a chance to explain himself basically he swears he never said anything remotely close to that.

I knew all along that Mr. Chase was seeing the two of us at the same time we had not said we were exclusive and with how often this other girl called (3-4 times) and texted him (sometimes 20-40 times a night) I knew something was up but since we were not exclusive I did not feel like I could or should say anything about it. I mean really, he was WITH me not her so I felt pretty secure in my standing as being

That said, after this email had been sent this girl felt the need to “break up” with Mr. Chase for a 3^rd or 4^th time. I’m not sure which. (She chickened out and Mr. Chase had to “break up” with her in the end… again.) Mr. Chase made me completely aware of what was going on between the two of them and like I said he was spending the majority of his time with me so I wasn’t too worried. However, I do have a bit of a jealous bone, yeah I think its parallel to my femur.

(10 points if you understand that reference- the femur is the largest bone in the body, ha ha ha)

So I will admit to being a little annoyed and jealous of this girl. Why? Because I am selfish and really just want Mr. Chase to myself, granted I have to share him with Daisy but that’s different.

After this last breakup Mr. Chase and I agreed that dating one another “exclusively” was probably a good idea. If we want to see other people we will check with the other person first and no kissing anyone else. I am his girlfriend and he is my boyfriend and seeing as I have only been interested in seeing Mr. Chase for a while now I am more than happy with this agreement.

At the end of the email this girl told me that if I wanted Mr. Chase I could have him, but she probably wouldn't stop seeing him.

Drama

oh yeah. I went there.

Don't Worry

{I stole this from one of my favorite blogs.}

Sometimes when things look the darkest we have to remember that it is darkest before the dawn and we have to just have to:

Just remember you can DO it!

The Good

Today- being Sunday meant that it was time to go to Church. To be honest I have never been a huge fan of going to Church. When you add my aversion to going to church and fact that I have an almost two year old that does not believe in being reverent or holding still for a prolonged period of time {unless she's watching The Wizard of Oz} does not equal a happy day/good experience for me. That said.

Today. Church. Was. Awesome!

Mr. Chase being the wonderful man he is came to church with us today. He was Amazing (which is the word I use to describe him pretty much all the time) he even brought a little bag of Coco Roo's in his pocket to help keep Daisy entertained and more manageable. I was able to actually listen to the speakers today and follow along with what was being said. I can't remember the last time that happened! When Daisy got a little too fussy he was the one that took her out into the hall to calm down and when they returned she was pretty good. He did such a good job of wrangling her throughout the meeting and about fifteen minutes into the meeting he leaned over to me with a big smile on his face as he watched Daisy quietly play on one end of the pew, "Do you realize how blessed you are?" he asked. And as I sat there enjoying the quiet moment, my heart swelled and tears actually rose in my eyes I had to take a deep breath. I am incredibly blessed thank you for reminding me Mr. Chase.

Make My Day

I was just checking my Facebook page before heading to bed and I noticed I had a message.

It was from Mr. Chase's mom.

She told me how much she enjoyed meeting Daisy and me and that she thought Mr. Chase and I were a good match. How sweet is that?!

Totally. Made. My. Day!