The Good

Today- being Sunday meant that it was time to go to Church. To be honest I have never been a huge fan of going to Church. When you add my aversion to going to church and fact that I have an almost two year old that does not believe in being reverent or holding still for a prolonged period of time {unless she's watching The Wizard of Oz} does not equal a happy day/good experience for me. That said.

Today. Church. Was. Awesome!

Mr. Chase being the wonderful man he is came to church with us today. He was Amazing (which is the word I use to describe him pretty much all the time) he even brought a little bag of Coco Roo's in his pocket to help keep Daisy entertained and more manageable. I was able to actually listen to the speakers today and follow along with what was being said. I can't remember the last time that happened! When Daisy got a little too fussy he was the one that took her out into the hall to calm down and when they returned she was pretty good. He did such a good job of wrangling her throughout the meeting and about fifteen minutes into the meeting he leaned over to me with a big smile on his face as he watched Daisy quietly play on one end of the pew, "Do you realize how blessed you are?" he asked. And as I sat there enjoying the quiet moment, my heart swelled and tears actually rose in my eyes I had to take a deep breath. I am incredibly blessed thank you for reminding me Mr. Chase.

Ambein Induced Tyraid

As my title mentions I am currently under the influence of that magical sleep aid known as Ambein. I love ambein, it really does the job and before I get past the point of no return to tonight I wanted to write down a recent conversation I had with Mr. Chase.

Mr. Chase is yet again out of town visiting with family and friends for the night and I will be heading out of town before he returns, so I can go visiting with family and friends for the weekend. Essentailly Mr. Chase and myself will not be seeing each other for nearly 3 whole days. To be completely honest I think he is more worried about this than me because he has called me 3 or 5 times today just to chat and let me know that he is missing Daisy and myself. (Pause for collective sigh, yes isn't that sweet of him? -Speaking of Sweet, he has found my pet name to be one of two things, I am either Sweetheart or Sweets.- )

We have had quite the myriad of strange discussions today. One that I deamed worthy of MLIA and submitted to have posted, if it gets up on the site I will definitly link up to it but in the mean while another discussion lays heavy on my mind. We were talking while Daisy watched Lady and the Tramp (that seems poetic) and Mr. Chase said those three words that every girl longs to hear. I was stunned. Flabergasted really, we had talked about how many people he had said that too and he said one, that was not family. So I was knock-over-able with a feather at that point good thing I was laying down. I asked him to repeat himself and he did saying it again but following it up with a line that took all the warm fuzzy feelings away, "Well its not like I'm IN love with you, its still too soon for that right?" and then the phone disconnected.

As with many of my recent posts i will end by saying. I"M SO CONFUSeD!!!

"That is NOT how I saw this night going."

As Mr. Chase, Daisy (I have been told that referring to my daughter as My Little Monster is not very nice- although tonight, she aptly earned the title) and I were driving home from dinner Mr. Chase declared dejectedly, "That is NOT how I saw this night going."

Mr. Chase called me on his way back into town from spending the holiday with his family. (Yeah, Happy New Year's to me) He called and asked if he could please take us out for dinner. I told him that sounded like a wonderful plan and would look forward to seeing him. We were just leaving my parents house, my mom gave Daisy and I haircuts Daisy got bangs and I feel like my hair is SOOO short, though in reality I finally got a real haircut not just a trim. It looks great and I KNOW it looks great but it feels soooo short :( So we hurried home, me with the vain hopes of getting home in time to style my new mop, and whaddya know Daisy fell asleep on the ride back into town and Mr. Chase pulled into my driveway right in front of me. He smiled at me and I hurried in to do the quick change and put some make up on while he moved his truck so we could take the car with the sleeping Daisy in it. So we went in search of somewhere OPEN to have dinner, third time was the charm Sushi won.

Daisy woke up as we pulled into the parking lot. She smiled and was excited to see Mr. Chase but as soon as we got into the restaurant it was a different story. No one could do anything right by her, she didn't want to sit in the high chair, she didn't want to color, she didn't want to sit in my lap, she didn't want to do anything except scream at me. The wait staff was incredibly kind and helpful, I was horrified she rarely throws tantrums like that at all let alone out in public. She insisted on being in my arms up and walking around the restaurant. Mr. Chase tried to entertain her but that only made her scream louder. I know she was just tired but her actions were getting out of control. After nearly thirty minutes of on and off fit throwing -I mean if you even looked at her the wrong way she would wail- she finally settled down.

So much for a fun dinner out. Maybe just maybe since she was so tired she would go to bed when we got back to my place? She and I went through her bedtime ritual and did all that we do. She said goodnight to Mr. Chase and gave us both big kisses and laid down. SUCESS!? Mr. Chase and I settled down on the couches ready to watch the movies we rented the night of the Red Light incident, ten minutes into the movie... MOMMY! I was going to let her cry for a few minutes, she was so tired already... MOMMY and it turned into screams, she had crawled 3/4 of the way out of bed and got stuck. She refused to sit and watch the movie, she refused to do anything except scream, pull hair, or do anything where the attention was not 100% focused on her.

I gave up. Mr. Chase gave up. The only person not completely exhausted by all of this? Daisy. I decided that the only way any of us were going to get any peace was a car ride. Mr. Chase politely declined the excursion and opted to go home, I was slightly dissapointed but if there was any way I could have gotten out of having to deal with this kid that didn't know when to quit I would have jumped at it as well!

I tossed Daisy into her carseat while Mr. Chase salted my sidewalk, the ice was treacherous. I ran back inside to grab my cell phone and Mr. Chase bid me a fond farewell and as he gave me a quick hug he told me he loved my short hair.

Now Daisy and I did a large loop around town with the heater all the way up and she was almost out as we pulled back into the driveway. As soon as the cold Cache Valley air hit her she was wide awake again. I nearly cried. We went through the bedtime ritual again, she refused, screamed for 10 minutes and finally gave up.

Tonight definitely did NOT go as planned.

Disappointment

I found out today that I will be ringing in the New Year sans
Mr. Chase.
I hate to admit it but I'm terribly disappointed
Now what am I going to do?
More importantly...
Who is going to kiss me?

Trouble in Paradise?

Today was Christmas.

That being the case Mr. Chase was not in town.

Rather he was down at his parents house. (Where he should be!)

So we did not see each other today.

We did text!

&

As always I waited for him to text me. (Call me old fashioned)

So tonight just as my little monster and I returned home from a long day of festivities @ my parents house, he asked why I had been so quite all day, furthermore, asked if I was trying to break up with him due to my lack of verbose communication and his fear that the disapproval of family members had gotten me to change my mind about seeing him.

The poor guy.

I explained that he wasn't gonna get out of this {whatever THIS is} so easily.

And all was well in the world again.

Yeah that pretty much sums it up.

Heard it Through The Grapevine!

Sometimes I wonder if anyone even reads this. I rarely receive comments but I am not complaining rather explaining how an interesting conversation took place with a church leader of mine. I was talking with said church leader this afternoon after our usual block of Sunday meetings and he expressed a concern over something he had "heard through the grapevine" about something someone had read on my blog. (Gasp!)

I was floored, had I been found out!? My midnight trysts with Mr. Chase were now the topic of ward gossip!? Oh the horror! (Just kidding)

I thought long and hard about what I had written on my blog and drew a blank, What on earth could someone read within this blog that could have had this church leader so concerned? He explained that he had been told about me writing about having Mr. Chase over at all hours of the night and that posed a concern.

I nearly laughed in his face. I carefully explained that while it is true that Mr. Chase and I have had a couple of late nights, we realized that they were not helpful or healthy for either one of us, we both needed our sleep and the late nights are now a thing of the past. He smile and agreed that this was probably a good idea, I asked him if he would like the link to this blog, so he could check up on me himself and not have to wait from concerned citizens but he just smiled and said no, he trusted me. I couldn't help but chuckle to myself I didn't realize that when I choose to have my dates was such a cause for concern in the general populous.

I can only imagine what this concerned citizen was thinking and would like to reassure them that all is well nothing shady is taking place regarding me - at my apartment or anywhere else for that matter -in the wee hours of morn nor in the broad light of day. As I mentioned earlier we have set a curfew, and I would just like to thank whoever you are for keeping an eye out for me and being so concerned over my virtue! I hope this eases your minds. And for future reference if you have any questions please feel free to leave a comment, you could even do so annonomyously :) I would be more than happy to answer any questions you may have

Round 1

Mr. Chase is out of town for the weekend. Visiting family. So we have been texting to keep one another entertained.
We had our first "misunderstanding" via text messaging today... go figure.
I received a random text, obviously not meant for me and rather than confront him, and ask him about it. I straight up told him he sent it to the wrong person and a few minutes later told him I was going to say good night. Seeing as it was 7:30 he became suspicious and asked me if I was upset. The texting that ensued was fraught with frustration and miscommunication but we got things sorted out and both apologized for the way we handled it.
I wish he would come home. I miss him. (He'll be back tomorrow)

Happiness is

Finding notes like this -{written in wall crayon}- on your bathroom wall

{and FYI when i found this i had a grin that not even a magic eraser could wipe off}

What a Day

Despite the horrible tossing and turning and nightmares of last night, today turn out to be a pretty fantastic day! My little monster slept until well after 11 am and I was able to get up and do some things I needed to.

We got up got dressed and got ready for the day, crepes were on the menu so I set to work on then and its true what they say "if you build it they will come" or rather in this case, "if you make it he will come. " That's right Mr. Chase showed up just in time for lunch. With a bag of his laundry to boot! And well now we have not come right out and said that we are "boyfriend/girlfriend" doing one another's laundry and spending lazy afternoons together... hum... but I'm not saying anything I'm not going to be the one to curse it.

Mr. Chase was nice enough to run me up to my appointment on campus with the academic advisor I have been dreading. I gave him a quick kiss goodbye but apparently that wasn't good enough because he pulled me back for another and another.

The Academic advising appointment astounded, astonished, and amazed me. I found out 4 classes that are all available next semester is all I need to graduate. I laughed, I cried and the advisor even gave me a hug! I can't remember the last time I felt such relief? {Perhaps when they told that after 48 hours of labor at home, I was finally dilated enough to have my little monster}I will have a degree! After 8 years of on and off I am finally going to get that blasted insanely expensive piece of paper to hang on the wall that says I DID IT!! I FINISHED SOMETHING!!! My mom was the first person I called she didn't answer and didn't answer so I called my dad, He DID answer and was almost as enthused as I am. I posted it on facebook and received many accolades and congratulatory remarks but there is still one semester left. I am confident. The end is near!!!

I celebrated by staying home all evening (because my car is broken) and making latkes.( They were stellar! ) seeding pomagranites and doing dishes. I sent Grace to bed painted my nails and was dozing on the couch when my phone began to sing to me a Tim McGraw song "I may be a real bad boy... but baby I'm a real good man..." this danced through my mind as I was dozing I snapped to when i realized WHO was calling. I looked at the clock quarter to midnight. I grumbled and answered my phone.

"Hello?" - I said in my grouchiest how dare you make me wait this long to hear back from you voice.

"Hey what you doin?" He asked in his happy golden retriever all is right in the world voice.

"Just sleeping on the couch" *click* I thought he hung up on me. Oh boy was that man going to get a piece of my mind. I called him back no answer. I tried again still no answer as soon as I hung up his ringtone played again. "Hangin up on me eh?" I asked.

"Sorry my phone died and its going to die again soon. I was wondering if I could come over and get my laundry."

I wanted to say, sorry the laundry mat closed at 10 but I think something along the lines of do you realize its almost midnight? came out. He said he'd be there in a moment and he arrived a few short minutes later. I was sprawled out half asleep on the couch so he came in and crawled over me so he could hug me for a moment. He apologized for leaving me in the dark and mentioned that he would not do it again. He stayed for about 20 minutes before it was time to send him home. He smiled and kissed me goodbye. Told me he wished he didn't have to go

My feelings exactly! So even though I was mad that he made me wait so long, all in all it was a pretty great way to end out a night.

The Chase

I had my first "real" date with the guy that I have been seeing for two weeks now. What should we call him? He needs a name so I can refer to him... hum... Let's call him... Mr. Chase because that may or may not be his name... or maybe I'll call him Chase because I am going to make him Chase me... get it? Oh I crack myself up sometimes.

To catch you up, Mr. Chase and I met online a few weeks ago, he lives less than 5 blocks way. We are both attending the local university and we have been seconds from passing each other in the hallways all semester long. He saw me on a dating sight and told me I looked familiar which if I didn't think the same thing I would have thought it was a line.

Anyway, we have been doing the hanging out sort of dating. You know the kind I'm talking about the hang out on the couch giggling when your elbows touch, watching movies, chatting. Lots of texting back and forth (not while he's here, that's just juvinile!) The first time he came over he actually spent the evening fixing the lights on my Christmas tree while I wrote a paper, and he has done a great job of making sure that I'm doing what I'm supposed to in my recovery from pneumonia, ie he reminds me to take my antibiotics. He is helpful, I was vaccumming when he came over the other night ( I had just redecorated my tree so there was glitter and whatnot all over the place) he took the vacuum, vacuumed everything up and even MOVED THE FURNITURE to get behind and under it!!! Well we decided that we should probably go on a REAL date out in public, the kind with the opening of doors and the pulling out of chairs.

To be honest I was NERVOUS when he came to pick me up, butterflies and everything. I was all flustered and he was too it was cute. We went to dinner and since we ate so early, around five, there was NO one else in the restaurant, we joked about him arranging a private room for us, very romantic. We enjoyed dinner and looked up movie times on my phone then headed off to the theater to catch Blind Side. (GReAT movie- sandra bullock should NOT be a blonde) Afterwards we headed back to my place and since My Little Monster was in bed, we decided to watch Phantom of the Opera.

All in all it was a pretty great "first" date. I told Mr. Chase that I was going to make him chase me. I'll let you know how it goes.